day 12

[Jennee]

What can I say today. Not much happening. lots in my head but nothing real. I go from being sad to happy to content to sad again. Im sore today too. My shoulders, back, my neck, my throat.

Everything i watch today is about twins. Everything I read is twins. I even have dreams about twins. This has been happening a lot the past year ( 3 or 4 times is a lot).

I've always felt i shoulda had twins, if i was going to have any kids at all. See, ive also felt that Im not suppose to have any.

I've got most of my pictures loaded up on shutterfly. I like this place. I can put so many pictures up. I think i have close to 2000. is that a lot? hehehe.

I get my birthday present tomorrow ~ a new dryer. yeah ;) now i can do laundry and save money and do it faster. I want to see how much I really save, if anything. I bet i will- only for the reason that I used to have to run the dryer twice per load.

This picture is how i felt most of the day. That if i can only find the key ( right ingredient, right recipe, right... whatever) i can achieve my goals. I can see it and i can set it up and i can plan for it but i cant get the door open to reach it.

on facebook today i met someone who is related to me. theyr grandpa was my great grammas sister. thats kinda cool ;)

im in a complaining grumpy mood today. not a bad mood. but just... fed up. frustrated. i guess. im starting to get stressed because tomorrow is friday... its a long weekend... C will be here... I WANT A WEEKEND OFF.

I was also thinking today about things people have said to me in my life time that have changed everything. like one sentence things. its weird how just a few words can change your whole life.

things such as :

Can Jennee have a baby ( oo if only i had known this was the beginning of the downfall that would last 7+ yrs)

Those condoms are for me and you... ( me and my ex were ttc and he had condoms in his car and he told me his friend gave them to him for us to use... we were TTC!!!)

Your just like your mother ( my father said this- and i said i d rather be like her than you)

Your family doesnt want you to know but...

I love you. (how many times has that changed everyones lives)

We have to talk...



temps went up. Ov. is coming. weight is up to 111 about... allergies havent start yet.

thats it for today. all wrapped up into one post.

[Rachael]

I have the twin feeling too. My DH is a twin, and I was supposed to be a twin (mine MC) so I've always felt we would have twins too. I think it'd be awesome, but at the same time I'd just be happy with 1!

I just recently got a new dryer too and I LOVE it! To be able to dry clothes in 20-50 minutes...that's insane to me! I didn't know mine was that bad, the only reason I got a new one is because the kids I watched during the day broke the door off.

Good luck with your ovulation this month! I'm sending my baby dust your way!

[Jennee]

oooo and they werent even your kids! hehehe

id have added it to the babysitting bill ;)

thanks ill send it right back to ya- *~*~*~*~*~*~*~

I would like twins, only to get 2 pregnancies done at once. if it takes me this long for one.... well you get it.

Im gonna ovulate tomorrow i think. i thought it would be early this month but i guess not. tomorrows day 15.