saturday the 14th- half done this cycle

[Jennee]

today's post is about-- friends. you find friends in the weirdest places;) and sometimes cyber friends are better than real friends.

how many people can actually say that? it is so true. I don't know why but my 'friends' face to face are not friends. they are acquaintances who call when they need to. I feel that they call bc they feel guilty for not calling. Or they feel guilty bc of my situation.

My online friends, talk bc they have something to say. they want to know what's going on. they may be nosey but they care. people I know online are also not afraid to say it how it is. they don't sugar coat things, whether that's bc there hiding behind the computer scree or that's they way they are, its good. they are honest.

This weekend is the last time for ttc I think. Im going to break it. take a coffee break. have a kit kat. whatever. quitting (for a while. ??) I am going to temp till the end of the month so I know when af is coming but I think that'll be it. AF is due for my birthday so... its not a great time to get PMS. and I think I just need to do nothing and drive myself crazy that way. spend my summer reading. I was suppose to read 52 books this year- yeah how's that going! I think i've read 10. Ill go tan outside and get all burnt and then complain about that.

I was laying in bed today trying to figure out which way my posts could go from now on without talking about babies, pregnancy etc etc. and then I read my emails. so I had to write about that.

im going to keep on writing every day- or trying to. everyone who reads my blogs loves them. i've had people say its like waiting for the next sitcom of my favourite TV show to come on.

Im sure with all the drama around my house I ll have lots to write.

[Jennee]

yeah i just got an email from a f2f .
it came about bc i told her i was having a rough week. and so i said bc of the ttc and trying to decide if i should quit.

she wrote back and said im lucky enough to have my son and step son and an easy pregnancy and delivery. but i know not everyone is. (no kidding) then about how teenagers seem to just lay down and get pregnant and then leave their kids at home to go party.
blah blah anyways it goes on.

i think people try to be sensitive, or nice or supportive and they dont say what they mean and and we dont hear what there really saying.

[Rachael]

I know what you mean. I love my friends, but I just can't rely on them for support anymore, not on this anyway. My friend just had a baby and I went over to see her and I was doing fine until she asked me when I was going to get knocked up. She knows the whole situation, knows we're on a break right now and I said "well I can't even try until November" and she was like "sheesh girl, I'll be pregnant with my second before you get pregnant." I know she didn't mean it to be rude, but can you say OUCH.

I find that my online friends are sometimes better friends than the ones I've known all my life. I can talk more openly to ya'll, and ya'll understand what I'm going through and what to say and what not to say.

Good luck with your break, and I really do hope that it gives you a piece of your life back. Message me anytime you need a vent, I know how much the break can suck.