friday- the 13th (day)

[Jennee]

Today i feel small. unimportant. ignored. or rather.. not thought of not ignored. i feel like everyone is above me, and im down here.

I recieved a reply about yesterdays post ( wanting to quit, etc. reaching the bottom). Someone on an infertility support group said to me - what do you want to hear from us ? You want me to tell you to quit? Then quit.

That wasn't my intention. My intentions were to find out what other people did when they felt this way. I even asked that in my post. my specific words- what do you all do when you feel like you cant go on, and cant try anymore. I think the poster could have worded things differently than how she did. It just made me feel like I had no right to feel the way I did. And that I was whining or complaining and I shouldn't be.

This is the second time it has happened actually. A while ago- maybe november/december I had posted on a different support group- asking if anyone had infertility for phsyical reasons and someone reacted badly- 'yelled' at me saying physical infertility is no better than hormonal, and they went off the handle. Luckily, someone else from the group told the lady to back off and that she was being insensitive, oversensitive and not reading what i wrote. The lady said no where in my sentence did i offend anyone, or do anything other than ask who else had physical problems.


Im still waiting to Ov. temp dropped today. Normal i noticed. then itll go up and this will be the long haul for the next 14 days then Af for my birthday. yee haw. what a way to celebrate. :-s

piece of crap stupid holidays and people and situations. ugh. maybe ill write more later

[Jennee]

nope im not quitting bc of what other people said. in fact if you knew me, youd see i do exactly the opposite of what people tell me!

im quitting bc i m not getting anywhere except more depressed. so.. time to quit. hang my hat up.
something.
im not quitting this group :D no one worry

[star101]

I glad too, I wouldnt tolerate nonsense like that on here

[amaila]

Jennee

am so glad that was'nt said on this site ! lol, well theres a lesson for us all x

I hope what people have said on other sites is not effecting your decision to quit, but ultimately it is your decision that only you can make, i am sure everyone will agree that if you do it still does not stop you posting on this site :-)

Today 20th May, you said you are quitting, i just hope it has nothing to do with needless comments previously made to you, so i hope you read this when you wake up. everyone is here for everyone, so whatever you decied keep posting :)

love amanda x

[Jennee]

you guys are s great ::D hehe.
I wish we had a cyber cafe/cyper space meeting place. hehehe. we could just sit all day long and chat.

I have to clear something up so EVERYONE is comfortable. the person who said this to me is not on this groups- as far as i know, so far. It was on a different website. I removed myself from that group- bc I dont want to have to be careful about what I say, or write, and if I cant be myself then whats the point in belonging.
So Ill just 'settle' (notice the quotes) for being here. it is much more fun, calm, respectful, loving over here. you surely cant call it settling if its so good!

The first time someone on a fertility community lashed out at me, I was sent a private Im from the group leader. The leader said, everyones fertility is jsut as horrible as the next, but some of us have to take hormone pills, shots, etc. and it makes us do things we don't understand. The person who lashed out at you is one of those people on hormone therapy. Please try to understand she most likely didnt mean what she said it was the pills.
Of course this doesnt excuse her but it made me realize (and remember how pms is for me...) that sometimes we freak and type and then press then send key and then its too late.

Anyways- my point is. i love everyone here. no one has been bad to me, and i havent witnessed anyone else being negative. if i do Ill let someone know *grin*

[amaila]

Jenne posted this on your original discussion "WHAT DO YOU ALL DO WHEN YOU FEL LIKE GIVING UP" as well :-)

At 11:55am on May 17th, 2008, amaila said…
Morning Jennee -------Reference :-

what do you want to hear from us ? You want me to tell you to quit? Then quit -------------------That is most definatly the most NEGATIVE statement that anyone could have said on this site !............

I assume they sent you a private message as i have re-read your blog’s / post’s and cannot see where this person has said that – so that makes it worse !!

You wrote:- Today i feel small. unimportant. ignored. or rather.. not thought of not ignored. i feel like everyone is above me, and im down here.
Re write it Jennee to – The only thing today that is unimportant and should be ignored is the statement someone wrote to you saying - what do you want to hear from us ? You want me to tell you to quit? Then quit............sounds like someone lashing out at you, as they feel like quiting but cannot express there feelings like you do in your blogs/posts.

Because personal i would have responded to the person in name so everyone could see, as you have not that makes you ABOVE IT ALL, and them DOWN there !

For this person to suggest your posts are complaining / wininging - This is a discussion forum out of all the posts / blogs i have read on here i find yours interesting especial the one about poas ! lol, and inspirational as you sound like you go through awful lot, you express your feelings well and indepth more than most, so dont let that "person" get to you :) x

The fact that you post from the HART and this persons post was HARTLESS speaks for itself in my book.

As you said WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE QUITING - you do what you did DISCUSS it with whoever, wherever you think you will get a decent, respectaful reply, - posting on a discussion forum i for one would not expect to recieve a reply that encourages my negative / sad thoughts when i have been brave enough to express them a syou have. I think you have handled it well :).becuase i would hit the roof ! lol

I write such long boreing unrelated things on my profile, if anyone in life made such a negative comment to me, i'd kick them to the wind !, on here i would have given a open reply to them on forum by NAME for everyone to see,

for them to suggest they speak for us all, they do not, so carry on as you are jennee, your a interesting and inspirational x

OOps as you can see im a little emotive today ! ha,ha

Love Amanda x

P.s again i'll say do NOT quit, quitters get no where !, even if you feel like your getting no-where and have nothing left to try, keep going it may just be round the corner !

I am no medical expert, i am new to all this, in fact i have to ask what the abreviations and medical terms mean lol, but i do know your an intelligent articulate women and clearly said "what do you do when you FEEL LIKE quiting" and you wrote your post clearly expressing your emotional feelings, this person clearly cant read !,..........and there comment is kicking a person that is already FEELING down, .........

........ forgive me for being straight (again lol), but am also angry that this person said "what do you want US to say" as in this is what the WHOLE of fertilitydiaries .com would say ! well i'l be staright again.............................


..........No one speaks for ME, there talking b@llsh*t and its a good job your've not stated their name, if theres one thing i cant stand at anytime, is anyone being negative or playing on peoples feelings.........i'm downright disgusted !.this is fertilitydiaries.com if you quit what would be the point of being on here ?, tell them to quit the bull !!! if the dont have anything good to say , to say nothing at all, ...........you have lots of friends on here that will encourage, help or just listen, this person "i hope" is a one OFF !

love Amanda x

[Rachael]

wait someone on here said that you? Whoever said that, look we're here to support each other no matter what is written. I'm sure your mother, or hell even Thumper's mother told you "if you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all." That comment was neither supportive nor helpful, so just leave it in your head and go on with your day.

Unfortunately with TTC boards, you have a lot of emotional and hurt women, with the added hormone problems, and so drama is inevitable. But that doesn't excuse anyone with the right to take it out on someone else. I hope this person realized how harsh and rude that was, and steps up as an adult to apologize. They should also be grateful that you handled it the way you did and not mentioned them by name.


That being said, it's normal to feel like giving up, normal to get so frustrated that you don't even want to think baby anymore. But we all know that we hit that hole and get depressed and then something hits and we gain back all the courage and strength to keep going. If it helps at all, my friend's MIL has been trying for a baby for 17 years. She finally gave up after 10 years and adopted 3 little girls. She just found out this mother's day that she's pregnant, even though she had stopped the injections, which is the only way she conceived her 2 sons.

[Jennee]

i stole it off of facebook. you can send 'bumper stickers' to each other. my mom found it and sent it to me. so.. you can steal it from me since i stole it from someone else. a lot of my pictures for my blog are stolen too ( but i give notice that they are)

[star101]

where did you get that from!

[Jennee]

[Jennee]

i think i should repost nikki's post on that other group i was on.
Thanks for saying im strong- i dont feel that way right now. When all of my emotions have calmed down hopefully i will. I just see myself as someone who cant stop time and i just have to deal with what im given. it doesnt make me strong it just means... i have no other choices and have to go on.
but thanks ;)