I haven't been on here in it feels like forever. Nathan Kenneth Fowlie Smith was born on Jan.14th/09 @ 11:17pm and he was 5lbs 15ounces. The pregnancy was great and I miss it alot but love having my baby boy here. He is now 7 weeks old and I feel like the time is just flying by. He now weighs 10lbs 8ounces and is breast feeding very well. I will post more when I get the chance, I hope everyone is doing well. :)
~Nikki~
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Added by Nikkihope on March 3, 2009 at 10:00pm —
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So I had my scan today and I'm going to be having a BOY!!!!! I am soo excited. Little Nathan Kenneth Smith. He's been kicking around alot more in there lately I feel him on a daily basis now. it's soo crazy to know that there is life in there and it's moving around and has its own heartbeat and stuff. too cool!!! Anyways I hope every one had a great summer. Sending out some Super Sticky baby dust to all TTC.
~Nikki~
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Added by Nikkihope on September 2, 2008 at 9:36pm —
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Hi ladies I haven't been on in awhile I've been so tired lately and I try to sleep whenever I can. I am sitting at 17w5d I have my next ultrasound on Sept.2nd and I will be finding out the sex of the baby. I am soo excited I can't wait. I actually felt a little movement this week and it was the most amazing thing I have ever felt. It kinda felt like a fish swimming in there lol. Well I hope everyone is keeping well. ~SSBD~ to all.
You are all in my thoughts and Prayers ~Nikki~:)
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Added by Nikkihope on August 18, 2008 at 9:24pm —
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hey ladies so I went for another u/s today and all is well I got to see the baby bouncing around in there it was amazing. Sending out some super sticky baby dust to all who are ttc. God bless and best wishes!!!! xoxoxoxox~Nikki~
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Added by Nikkihope on July 4, 2008 at 7:46pm —
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It seems that the last few days have been filled with ladies who feel like there will never be a silver lining to the stormy clouds that they face... It is to these women (as well as those who haven't said anything about their own inner turmoil) that I say keep going. Don't ever stop. You may be in the darkest place in your lives, but I can promise that things will get better. What sucks is that it takes time... some may think it takes too much time *raises hand*
I've had my share of dark times…
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Added by Nikkihope on June 18, 2008 at 11:59pm —
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Hi ladies, So everything went well today the baby is where its supposed to be and there was a little heartbeat I am 7w1d and I go back in 4 weeks for another u/s. I will post the pics on Monday because I am in the city at my mothers right now. She's taking me for a pedicure tomorrow :)!! I hope everyone has a great weekend.
~Nikki~
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Added by Nikkihope on June 7, 2008 at 3:01am —
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I'm soo excited yet soo nervous all at the same time. I just really don't want to hear bad news. I hope I get to see a healthy little bean with a healthy little heart beat. My nausea has calmed down a bit the last 2 days. It was really bad on tuesday. I couldn't keep a thing down but now I am eating and keeping it down just small portions though but many times a day. I've been having some really crazy dreams the last couple of nights as well. Anyways hope all is well with everyone I will post to…
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Added by Nikkihope on June 5, 2008 at 11:41pm —
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Hey ladies I thought I would update yall on how I'm doing. I've been really tired and the last couple of days the nausea has started. It's sooo wierd only one of my BB's are sore lol my right one. feels like someone used it as a punching bag and my left one is fine. I've been soooo constipated lol all I want to do is poop. Sorry if that is TMI. 1 week today until I get my ultrasound. I am soooo excited and nervous. Time feels like it is going sooo slow. Dh told his parents yesterday and they sou…
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Added by Nikkihope on May 30, 2008 at 1:34pm —
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Hey ladies hope everyone's weekend went well the weather was soo beautiful. I had my aunts Birthday party to go to yesterday and everyone guessed I was pregnant I have a little bump growing and I am eating like CRAZY!!! lol. I am soo tired today though I think I am going to go take a nap soon but i think I will eat something first LOL. Anyways hope everyone is doing good.
Sending some extra baby dust out to Rachael, Jennee and Amaila Hope you girls get your bfp's this month so we can all be pre…
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Added by Nikkihope on May 25, 2008 at 8:30pm —
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Hey ladies I went to my Re's today and she put me on Prometrium suppositories 100mg 2times a day. That is to bring up my progesterone levels. I go for my first ultrasound on June.6th. 16 more days I'm soo impatient lol. I am sooo over joyed right now it's amazing!!! I have to try not to stress and stay of my feet as much as I can. Hope everyones week is going good.
Luv all my fertility diaries girls ~Nikki~
Sending sticky baby dust to all*
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Added by Nikkihope on May 21, 2008 at 7:28pm —
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Hey ladies just wanted to give you all an update. My Dr's office just called I have to go in tomorrow at 1pm. I'm a little dissapointed that she didnt get me in there today. I'll just have to try and keep the worry at the back of my mind. I'm really hoping this is not a ectopic because I have been getting little pains only on one side my right side and that is scaring me. I will be having all my levels checked tomorrow as well as having an unltrasound to make sure it is not ectopic. Please God l…
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Added by Nikkihope on May 20, 2008 at 2:34pm —
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As some of you know I was at my RE's last week and she told me i didnt ovulate due to my progesterone levels which means they are low and i need them to be high in order to substain this pregnancy. I cant get ahold of the office until tomorrow so I am anxiously waiting. God please let me keep this baby. I'm sooo scared but I'm trying to put it at the back of my mind. I really hope she can help me to keep this pregnancy. I dont know what i would do if I lost this baby. Please Ladies keep me in yo…
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Added by Nikkihope on May 19, 2008 at 11:47am —
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OMG I took an hpt this morning because I am 3 days late and having some back pain and I got a faint positive. I'm trying not to get too excited but it is soooo hard!! I sent Jay to go get me another test just to make sure. Maybe my doc was wrong maybe I did ovulate. Hmmmm I'm sooo ne…
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Added by Nikkihope on May 18, 2008 at 4:00pm —
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Hey ladies I thought I would give you guys and update on my RE appt. Well it turns out my blood work shows I did not Ovulate this month. My progesterone level was 1.5 which is not very high so I go for blood work again in 3 weeks and then back to the RE's in 4 weeks and she said she will probably be putting me on Femara not this cycle but next cycle. So she thinks I may be anovulatory. I am a little dissapointed because my bbt said I did ovulate. My Re said that BBt charting is very unpredictabl…
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Added by Nikkihope on May 14, 2008 at 7:54pm —
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I'm excited I get to go see my RE tomorrow and get some answers and find out what more we can do. I already have a list of questions written down to ask her because I am forgetfull I write them down. And I have my charts to bring her. Honestly I can't wait!!!! I could be Pregnant right now and not even know it. I highly doubt it though. Anways hope everyone's week is off to a good start.
~Nikki~
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Added by Nikkihope on May 14, 2008 at 2:30am —
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I am extremely sad today I haven't felt this down in a long time. I miss being pregnant I miss what is supposed to be right now. I would have been 6 months pregnant I wonder how I would have looked and what I would be making the nursery up to be a little boy or a little girl? In my heart I feel like my first m/c was a girl and my second m/c was a boy. I dont know for sure but that's just what my heart tells me. I am mad This isnt how it's supposed to be. I'm supposed to be happy. I'm far from it…
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Added by Nikkihope on May 13, 2008 at 12:15am —
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Hi all Fertility friend keep chaging my date of Ovulation. maybe i didnt even O this month??!! I have no idea what is going on with my body and thank god I go see my specialist on Wed. I'm goin to attatch my link for FF and if anyone can give me advice or there opinion it would be greatly appreciated!!
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/18ec2f
At first FF told me i ovulated late on CD18 now it is saying I Ov'd CD23 is that even possible??
This is really freaking me out. I caved and took an h…
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Added by Nikkihope on May 12, 2008 at 6:30pm —
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I went for my 21day test today so when I go see my RE on Wed she should have the results back and we should be able to go from there. I'm really praying that I can conceive by September. That was my Edd and I really dont know how I will get past it without being pregnant. Is that selfish of me?? This sunday is not going to be all that great for me either. My step Daughter is not going to be here my Fiance is working in the city so he wont be here. I'm going to be all by myself and all my gf's ha…
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Added by Nikkihope on May 9, 2008 at 3:37pm —
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I'm just curious if I have any cycle buddies?? My last af was Apr.17th and I ovulated late this month on CD18 and I am now 4dpo. Just Curious if anyone is close to the same time as me???
Here is a pic of my chart from this cycle.
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Added by Nikkihope on May 8, 2008 at 3:51pm —
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When I ask you to listen to me and you start giving me advice, you have not done what I asked.
When I ask you to listen to me and you begin to tell me why I shouldn't feel that way, you are trampling on my feelings.
When I ask you to listen to me and you feel you have to do something to solve my problem, you have failed me, strange as that may seem.
Listen! All I ask is that you listen.
Don't talk or do - just hear me.
Advice is cheap: 20 cents will get you both Dear Abby and Billy Graham in…
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Added by Nikkihope on May 7, 2008 at 5:28pm —
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