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[TTcBaby1]

Don't you hate the feeling of being depressed and not being able to get sleep because baby's are on your mind? The feeling of not being able to discuss your infertility sadness with your husband because you don't want to make him sad. The jealousy? Feeling like your the only one? Its baby season you walk into wallmart and everyone is pregnant but you.
Feeling like your getting to old. Why Why Why not me........
just venting

[jakedmc]

Well, I am sitting here on this site feeling depressed and sad too!!
I also am old and did not feel old till we started this whole process. 1 failed ivf and thats just the result we did not even consider!!
We did deide to try again but I def feel not so confident this time/?? Do you think it will effect the outcome??

[Marsha85]

Hey Chooky,

Everyone goes through this time. I have been trying near 3 years now and nothing not even a false BFP. I know how you feel and totally sympothis with you.

i am 22 nearly 23 and everyone of my friends are either pregnant or have a new baby and it makes me feel so small and you get the usual comments "don't you want children" or "so when are you going to have children" it hurts but when you don't tell anyone apart from you guys that we are trying then it makes it hard and you have to hold your tongue and smile as they don't know any better and don't know we are doing all we can at this point in time to have our little miracle.

Sorry for the ramble.

Hope it helps to know your not the only one and you can rant as much as you want on here

Take care be safe

Marsha

[Twinkletoes]

Hey honey, sorry to hear your feeling down and depressed, but like Marsh says, everyone at some stage TTC goes through this, I am 34 this year and TTC for 8 years, so Yeh i understand your feelings and frustrations, time has come for me now to rise above my depressions and decided if it happens it happens if it doesnt also to talk openly together with my husband even if it hurts us both, we are both going through the same things and a problem shared is a problem halved.We just got to keep trying, as long as we can afford to, I have been on cIomid with no success have tried IVF 3 times and on my and am currently on my 2ww now, but if i'm not successful this time we will try again until we decide otherwise, I think PMA is a great healer in a lot of things and at least i have you guys who knows exactly whats going on with the hurt and pain and suffering, and without you and of course dh and family dont know what we would do.

PMA all the way.

hugs and kisses
Twinkletoes

[Denise]

I am feeling the same way. I feel & think the same things as you. What have I done to deserve this? Am I not supposed to have any more children. I am 35 & have an 8 yr old daughter. I wasn't even trying when she was concieved but now have problems. I don't know that I can help you understand because I don't understand myself. Keep trying and praying.

[Fertility]

Yes very much, except i dont feel like i can talk to my other half. :( He just doesnt understand even if he says he does but i cant even begin to describe how much it has affected my life..... i cant get it out of my mind, like you - everyone around me, no seriously EVERYONE around me is having kids and it breaks my heart. my hormones are crazy cos of my pcos, the stress of it all makes me feel like i cant breathe at times...... what is good is the extra special community that there is online for infertility and im sure many many people around the world will agree, that they wouldnt have been able to cope with things as well or have kept as high hopes as if they hadnt have had the support they have found online - so thank you all and i look forward to being part of your community and helping each other through this very difficult time....

GO GIRLS!!! :P
H x

[Zoila G. Toomer]

Well let me just say that for one you are not the only one who feels this way. I always get that feeling every time I see a pregant woman, a child or simple just walk by the baby isle. At first I would blame myself and just ask God... why me? I know I would be a great mom and I know my husband would make a great dad. I have cried myself to sleep many times and just wake up the next morning more sad and hopeless than the night before. Things are bound to get better and I just have to believe that they will. I have been ttc for almost 3 years now, just currently started fertility meds a couple of weeks ago and hopefully this will finally give us a result. Prayer to me is everything, their isnt one day that goes by that I don't ask God to bless my husband and I with a miracle. Take care and I hope you feel better and remember you are not alone.